Holidays in Hong Kong > Day 2 / Thursday, December 14, 2006
Tuesday Today I woke up rather late at 10:30, when we were meant to leave the house -.-" and they came early so we ended up being half an hour late. We went to the new building in Mong Kok, the Lancaster Tower, for breakfast, but everything was too expensive, so Aunty Wendy took us to Yum-Cha. It was a bit of a disappointment because it wansn't the type with people pushing trolleys around, but there aren't too many of those anymore. There was a discount if we ordered before noon, so Aunty ordered all these random dishes. Chris couldn't eat much; he doesn't eat pork because of religious reasons, won't eat any seafood, and won't try anything he hasn't had before, which limited his meal to one dish, and tea. What's the point of going to foreign countries to live off MacDonald's and KFC?
Because we took so long at breakfast, we cut out a chunk of shopping time, not to mention afterwards when we were looking for the street market of Temple Street. We found the street but not the markets. Haha, when I found the right way to go, I dramatically pointed my hand in the direction - - - and whacked some old guy in the head while I was at it too X_X So embarrassing!!! I apologised and ran away. But we somehow ended up in a different suburb because all the suburbs are all close together, so instead of wandering aimlessly around, we took the MTR back, and went to the Ladies Street markets instead, which is basically the same anyway.
They were so excited to get started. Chris and Maiki bought so much stuff, while Olivia and I didn't buy so much. I felt a bit noobish because I hadn't done any haggling for a year (my honour is worth $7 TW ^^""") but as I said before (have I?) it felt good to be back. Olivia and Maiki's 'thing' is the Monokuro Boo pigs, and I pointed out almost every single merchandise, so much that they sort of got over it...oops :P Maiki was still wanting the huge seal toy he saw in Mannings yesterday but he couldn't find any today. He's the type where he'll want something, but not want to buy it, but the more he looks at it, the more he'll want to buy it, and probably end up buying it anyway. On the other hand, Chris is a very decisive shopper, he wants something, snap, he'll buy it immediately, if he doesn't want it, snap, move on. I'm the type that if I want something, I don't want to buy it, but if I'm not holding it, I'll keep on wanting it, and if I'm holding it, the less I want to buy it. I bought a huuuuuuuge zippo, which I'll somehow engrave and give to my dad as a present. Also Death Note stickers, and a big panda sticker for Eric.
After the long Ladies Street everyone was tired and hungry, and Chris and Maiki had a big handful of bags. I wanted to take them to a HK style cafe restaurant, but we ended up going to Pizza Hut, and it was completely awesome!!! All four of us ended up getting the spaghetti bolognaise meals. Liv and I kept on jinxing (saying the same things at the same time) each other while ordering, I think we freaked out the waiter XD Olivia finished all her soup first and got full quickly, so I ate half her spaghetti for her, and when we went downstairs, I was already getting hungry XD
Maiki was still looking for a DS so we looked at a lot of electronics shops. In one of the buildings we went into, I met Judy! She was working in a jewelry stores I was looking at. It was good to see her again, she was very different from a few years before, prettier now. One of the first things he said to me was that I was much fatter than before T_T Haha...oh well, too lazy to diet ^^ And then...somehow I was conned into buying a $300HKD ring (about $50AUS) X_X As Olivia says, it is now a symbol of how easily I can be guilt-tripped *sigh*. But at least I have the promise from her that I get a necklace from her for my birthday. Silver King jewelry is really kool V(^_^)V
Afterwards we went to another building wherethere were a lot of cute toys and hardcore clothing. I really missed the busy-ness of Hong Kong, where every turn is filled with all these pretty/shiny/distracting/interesting gadgets. Olivia found this really kool store called Dracula that sold lolita cosplay costumes *drool* if only if only... In the next building we went to, Maiki gave up on his DS because it was too expensive for him, and Chris bought a while load of games. I bought the whole set of Death Note manga!! AHHHHH!!!!!! So happy ^________________^ Olivia was so funny, every time Maiki looked at a girl, even in a passing glance, she would whack him. It was just the funniest thing to see when he said "hey, boots" then Olivia would swing a huge plastic bag filled with her shopping and whack him in the stomach. Chris had trouble with his Traveller's card, when he looked at his account balance it read $8 O_O But he did manage to withdraw about $8000HKD so... On the street someone rang me and told me I had dropped my passport!! I freaked out since my mum had somehow misplaced mine at home. Turns out it was Judy pulling a prank. More trouble at home, Dad was looking at my identification card to China and it had expired. Good thing we found out early rather than too late.
Reading back, I've been complaining a lot about Chris (this is copied from my hand-written diary, and I've made some changes from paper to computer). Funnily enough, Maiki and I get along really well, some aspects of us are really similar, and we can have a lot of fun together. Have you ever felt an urge to do something completely out of line, and sometimes downright dangerous for no reason at all? Not to show off or anything, just to feel what it would be like to do it? I'm not suicidal (no, really, I'm not), but sometimes when I'm leaning over the edge of a balcony, I look down and wonder if I would be able to jump down and land properly, or what would be my emotions and feelings of the air rushing pass me. Or when I'm sitting in the car with the window down as I'm looking at the ground speeding beneath me, I suddenly get this urge to jump out the window and see if I'm invincible. But I'm also realistic, I fear the consequences, it's like I want to test my mortality, to what extent do I exist?
But every time, I step away from the balcony, I close the window, I'm too burdened to die yet. Do you fear dying or death? What do you think lies after life? In Christianity, it's either heaven or hell of some sort; in Buddhism, the wheel of life turns into another life, and such in other religions. For Agnostics and Aetheists, what lies after life? Eternal sleep, haunting of places on earth, an alternate universe, becoming a spirit that watches over the people that still live, torture to pay for the sins you've committed?
The point of going through all that was the stranges urges I get. Things such as, suddenly go "meow" randomly, or want to hug, bite, kiss, pat, scratch, scream, etc. With Maiki, I've felt the urge to hug (to feel his jacket), bite (to see him jump), kiss (to see what the shape of my lip gloss would be like on his cheek). The brackets are the excuses for these urges, because there are no reasons for these unreasonable wants. I feel no romantic feeling towards him, I just want to feel. (If Olivia ever reads this I'll probably have my face scratched out X_X)
Probably for the same reason for this love/hate relationship I have with so many people, one of them Chris. I hate closed minds, and cannot tolerate stupidity in others, that is why I'm always pushing for perfection. In a way, the harsher I am on something, it means the more I like it, because if I didn't care about it, I wouldn't care about what it was like. To describe Chris in seven words would be: lots of heart and not much thought. I am told I am logical, practical and realistic to the point of cold-hearted, and he is pretty much the opposite, "Do what your heart tells you". He is very passionate, and sometimes I can share that, and sometimes I can't, and my need to be alone confuses and frustrates him and his need for constant reassurance and demonstration of our 'love'.
We're still childrean, I don't know what he's thinking, but I don't know what I'm living for yet, or what I want from this relationship (or any) yet. If i already know all this, wouldn't everything be so boring?I can take as much time as I want of my personal journey to wherever, but if affects my time spent with him, but it's so hard not to be selfish, it's human nature. As much as I cannot tolerate selfishness in others, I'm aware of my own selfishness. But he seems to bring it all out of me, and in some way, it's because I love him that I let him see this side of me.
I say he's better with someone else, but then again I don't think I'm ready to let him go yet. I act a little differently around him, and I think he doesn't like the more boyish and independent side of me. As a couple, we're both giving, but we don't like to take. I really hate it when he puts me in front of everything else, because it's like he's creating his life around me, and I have to compensate for everything he'll be missing out on, and that I have to do the same for him. I can do what I want, when I want, with who I want, that's why I think he should act the same. He's a little offended when he threatens to do things with/look at other girls that he knows Maiki would earn a smack from Olivia, but I just shrug and say "sure, do whatever, I don't care". It's not that I completely don't care, but it doesn't affect us?